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-dedicated exclusively to my sweet heart ‘Roger’!!

Oh my! I am falling in love, all over again. But still he is my ‘first love’. I drive him crazy. He makes me drive him crazy! He has been my constant companion in the past year. A year has flown. It is totally unbelievable. I saw him the first time when I was in my 11th std. Sleek, shiny, handsome and striking with his silver streaks he was. I wasn’t all over him at the first sight. He understood this, so he went to befriend my brother first. And I starter seeing a bit more of him when he accompanied me and my brother to the theatres, malls, to my grandma’s place, and very rarely to my college. He must have had a delight when he visited my college, it being a complete girl’s college.

Three years flew. Nothing great happened. Then my brother had to go abroad. So my brother acquainted me and him a bit more. We both started going out at times with my brother tailing behind us to see if everything is alright! Once my brother went abroad, it was celebration time for him. He has become mine. No more of my brother intruding us! He now accompanied me where ever I went. He used to wait patiently for me with love and concern in the rain and sun.

When I come out, he used to flicker at me with joy. At times he was angry with me; he wouldn’t come out with me. I would have to kick him hard and start him out of his lazy slumber to come out with me. Still I am grateful to him, that because of me he had to meet with an accident with another big macho man. But still he doesn’t grumble at me when he wears that scar that accident rewarded him. He wears that big white scar with pride and almost gleams at me!

There have been days, when he has been filthy and uncouth. There have been days he will have this rugged, unkempt look. There have been days when he looks like he has come straight out of the mud and dust. There have been days when he could not run properly, that he gallops like a horse as he is getting older. But always he will have that striking appearance, that makes him stand apart however filthy and dirty he is, and how much ever he gallops like a horse*. (*courtesy: my gang of friends)

Whatever happens, He is mine and will be mine forever. Yes. This entire blog is dedicated exclusively to my ‘Roger’. My sleek, shine, handsome, AY 8291 Scooty pep, black. He will be there with me and stand with me wherever I go. We have an amazing relationship. At times he may grumble to come out with me, but in the end he will definitely give in to my tantrums and start to accompany me wherever I go. Wherever I go he follows me. As long as he gets enough Air, petrol and oil to help him survive. He will be there for me.

Love you loads Roger

Zanychild
Driving people insane as always.

[Intro- Spoken:]

Yeah

I know sometimes things may not always make sense to you right
now

But hey, what daddy always tell you?

Straighten up little soldier

Stiffen up that upper lip

What you crying about?

You got me



[Verse 1:]

Hailie, I know you miss your mom and I know you miss your dad

Well I'm gone but I'm trying to give you the life that I never
had

I can see you're sad, even when you smile, even when you
laugh

I can see it in your eyes, deep inside you want to cry

Cuz you're scared, I ain't there

Daddy's with you in your prayers

No more crying, wipe them tears

Daddy's here, no more nightmares

We gon' pull together through it, we gon' do it

Laney, uncle's crazy, aint he?

Yeah but he loves you girl and you better know it

We're all we got in this world

When it spins, when it swirls

When it whirls, when it twirls

Two little beautiful girls

Lookin' puzzled, in a daze

I know it's confusing you

Daddy's always on the move, mamma's always on the news

I try to keep you sheltered from it but somehow it seems

The harder that I try to do that, the more it backfires on me

All the things growing up his daddy that he had to see

Daddy don't want you to see but you see just as much as he
did

We did not plan it to be this way, your mother and me

But things have gotten so bad between us

I don't see us ever being together ever again

Like we used to be when we was teenagers

But then of course everything always happens for a reason

I guess it was never meant to be

But it's just something we have no control over and that's what
destiny is

But no more worries, rest your head and go to sleep

Maybe one day we'll wake up and this will all just be a dream



[Chorus:]

Now hush little baby, don't you cry

Everything's gonna be alright

Stiffen that upper lip up little lady,

I told ya Daddy's here to hold ya through the night

I know mommy's not here right now and we don't know why

We feel how we feel inside

It may seem a little crazy, pretty baby

But I promise momma's gon' be alright



[Verse 2:]

It's funny

I remember back one year when daddy had no money

Mommy wrapped the Christmas presents up

And stuck 'em under the tree and said some of 'em were from
me

Cuz daddy couldn't buy 'em

I'll never forget that Christmas I sat up the whole night
crying

Cuz daddy felt like a bum, see daddy had a job

But his job was to keep the food on the table for you and mom

And at the time every house that we lived in

Either kept getting broken into and robbed

Or shot up on the block

And your mom was saving money for you in a jar

Tryna start a piggy bank for you so you could go to college

Almost had a thousand dollars till someone broke in and stole
it

And I know it hurt so bad it broke your momma's heart

And it seemed like everything was just startin' to fall apart

Mom and dad was arguin' a lot so momma moved back

On the Chalmers in the flat one bedroom apartment

And dad moved back to the other side of 8 Mile on Novara

And that's when daddy went to California with his CD and met Dr.
Dre

And flew you and momma out to see me

But daddy had to work, you and momma had to leave me

Then you started seeing daddy on the T.V. and momma didn't like
it

And you and Laney were to young to understand it

Papa was a rollin' stone, momma developed a habit

And it all happened too fast for either one of us to grab it

I'm just sorry you were there and had to witness it first
hand

Cuz all I ever wanted to do was just make you proud

Now I'm sittin in this empty house, just reminiscing

Lookin' at your baby pictures, it just trips me out

To see how much you both have grown, it's almost like you're
sisters now

Wow, guess you pretty much are and daddy's still here

Laney I'm talkin' to you too, daddy's still here

I like the sound of that, yeah

It's got a ring to it don't it?

Shh, momma's only gone for the moment



[Chorus]



[Verse 3:]

And if you ask me too

Daddy's gonna buy you a mockingbird

I'mma give you the world

I'mma buy a diamond ring for you

I'mma sing for you

I'll do anything for you to see you smile

And if that mockingbird don't sing and that ring don't shine

I'mma break that birdie's neck

I'd go back to the jewler who sold it to ya

And make him eat every carat don't fuck with dad (haha)

I'll be your dream
I'll be your wish
I'll be your fantasy.
I'll be your hope
I'll be your love
Be everything that you need.
I love you more with every breath
Truly madly deeply do..
I will be strong I will be faithful
'Cos I'm counting on a new beginning.
A reason for living.
A deeper meaning.
Chorus

I want to stand with you on a mountain.
I want to bathe with you in the sea.
I want to lay like this forever.
Until the sky falls down on me...
Verse 2

And when the stars are shining brightly
In the velvet sky,
I'll make a wish
Send it to heaven
Then make you want to cry..
The tears of joy
For all the pleasure and the certainty.
That we're surrounded
By the comfort and protection of..
The highest power.
In lonely hours.
The tears devour you..
I want to stand with you on a mountain,
I want to bathe with you in the sea.
I want to lay like this forever,
Until the sky falls down on me...
Bridge

Oh can't you see it baby?
You don't have to close your eyes
'Cos it's standing right before you.
All that you need will surely come...

I'll be your dream
I'll be your wish
I'll be your fantasy.
I'll be your hope
I'll be your love
Be everything that you need.
I'll love you more with every breath
Truly madly deeply do...
Chorus

one of the songs i like recently

You can change your life- if you wanna
You can change your clothes- if you wanna

If you change your mind
Well, that's the way it goes

But I'm gonna keep your jeans
And your old black hat- cause I wanna
They look good on me
You're never gonna get them back
At least not today, not today, not today
'cause

[CHORUS:]
If it's over, let it go and
Come tomorrow it will seem
So yesterday, so yesterday
I'm just a bird that's already flown away

Laugh it off let it go and
When you wake up it will seem
So yesterday, so yesterday
Haven't you heard that I'm gonna be okay

You can say you're bored- if you wanna
You can act real tough- if you wanna
You can say you're torn
But I've heard enough

Thank you... you made my mind up for me
When you started to ignore me
Do you see a single tear
It isn't gonna happen here
At least not today, not today, not today
'cause

[CHORUS]

If you're over me, I'm already over you
If it's all been done, what is left to do
How can you hang up if the line is dead
If you wanna walk, I'm a step ahead
If you're moving on, I'm already gone
If the light is off then it isn't on
At least not today, not today, not today
'cause

[CHORUS 2X]

...the place is filled with red heart shaped balloons, king size candy bars the shape of hearts.....big cuddly teddy bears (eww...I hate them).....gifts waiting to be packed in jarring red wrappers and the ever old chocolate boxes.....
I wonder what has gotten into the mind of the city I live in. It was sensible yesterday. What happened all of a sudden? I look around and ask my friend this question. She looks at me as if I were from an alien land. I glare at her and ask ‘what?’ she asks where I have been without noticing these things. I am even more confused. Then she says ‘don’t you know, this is February the season of love!!’ I say, ‘duh, so what’. She rolls her eyes at me and walks off.

Well yeah people, what is the big deal. Why are we celebrating a valentines day? I personally think, it is celebrated to remind people ‘love is not lost between people in this mechanical world’. That’s how it should be celebrated. Not like out of the blue. Everything turns red. And you find couples; couples and more couples everywhere you go huddled together! People may argue it is to express love, but why do we need one specific day to express our love, we have 365 days in a year for that. We do not need to single out a specific day for this purpose. Love is supposed to be eternal, not temporary on this single day.

When you say to your beloved, that you love her more than anything, and you were waiting for Valentines Day to tell her that. Doesn’t it sound dumb? Why do you have to wait to do anything special for her/him? Love shouldn’t wait. It knows no day or time. If on only this day, you tell her you love her, does it mean that you do not love her on other days?

Why do you need a single valentine day, when you have all the days in the year with you is my question? Why do you people suddenly act so dumb, funny, and emotional suddenly on this day? Where was this side of yours all this time? You might go and tell her/him that the gift you brought in the shop reminded you of him/ her. Why do you need others to remind you of him/her? Doesn’t it have to come naturally? Don’t you have to be reminded of her/him every single minute in your life? Does a lifeless gift need to remind of him/her? I seriously don’t get it.

I was browsing through the net and found some love quotes, which I found really funny, they come as follows; you may curse me that I don’t understand love and what is expressed. But that’s how I see love, just as it is. Let me remind you I am not seeing this world through rose colored glasses as many of you, so you got to bear with me!!

I'd like to run away
From you,
but if you didn't come
and find me ...
I would die.
~ By Shirley Bassey ~

Then why are you running in the first place. You know you can’t live without him or her. So just accept it and move on, and don’t take such stupid drastic decisions like running away!!

I would fly you to the moon and back if you'll be . . . if you'll be my baby.
~ From a song by Savage Garden ~

I need something more practical for me to be your love!! I know as hell you cant fly me to the moon and back too.

No man is truly married
until he understands
every word his wife is NOT saying.
~ by Unknown ~

How the hell will the poor man understand what she is not saying? The women are seriously dumb to want such a thing to happen. That is how men are. Learn and live with it!!

Love: a temporary insanity, curable by marriage...
~ by Ambrose Bierce ~

Yeah then it will not be temporary but a permanent insanity!!!

I have loved to the point of madness;
That which is called madness,
That which to me,
Is the only sensible way to love.
~ By F. Sagan ~

So do you get the point, only crazy and mad people fall in love!!!...

So decide whether you are the sensible one or the crazy lunatic, and well I can’t help it, but to wish the lunatics

A happy valentine’s day!!!

It is a sensible thing to wish the lunatics!!

Zanychild
Driving people insane as always

People say I no longer smile. I have completely lost it, my smile I mean, my brains are still intact. When and where did I lose my smile?

Was it when wars broke all over me? Was it when terrorism and terrorists became rampant in my place? Was it when due to the need of water I was malnourished, and my stomach rumbled resulting in destructions all over me? Was it when 3/4^th of the water in my body engulfed the other 1/4^th in the name of tsunami? Was it when Katrina dumped me and blew across me with such ferocity? Was it when I could not provide sufficient space to my expanding people resulting in poverty? Was it when the governments ruling my countries have become shamelessly corrupted and selfish? Was it when deadly diseases like AIDS and Cancer thronged their heads among the masses of my people? Was it when educational institutions’ became profit making institutions? Was it when medical services became minting money services rather than a noble service? Was it when people like Sadam Husain were once let to rule a country? Was it when innocent lives were taken, but corrupt and evil people like Osama Bin Laden were let to live? Was it when my next generation youngsters- the dream of the future started to follow the footsteps of such evil people? Was it when people in the name of religion started fooling others? Was it when it was no longer safe for little children to go out and play, due to the existence of such Noida serial killers? Was it when the amount of people committing suicide hit enormous figures? Was it when people could no longer live in harmony with others? Was it when materialistic satisfaction became more important to people than the concern for others? Was it when people started eating, drinking and living on money? Was it when God remained a silent visionary to all those happening around him?

Aren’t these plenty enough reasons for me to lose my smile? And are you thinking why I have lost my smile? Because, I am none other than ‘the World’. The poor, helpless world that, bears the extreme consequences of the above actions.

Will I smile in the future? It solely depends on you people and only you. Learn to make me smile. See me smile and blush, and I promise you that will be the most enriching, priceless experience in your life. It is a moment you wouldn’t forget. So work harder. Make me smile. Make my remote dream come true in the very near future.

Zany child

Driving people insane as always